well im happy that i get to see my mate who came over n all that but i just hate the fact that no one can trust me around my sister coz i get to aggresive and might flip out and hurt her 
its really upsetting and they all just think i just do it and i can help it but i cant i really cant i just get agnry all the time without thinking and just flip out for the smallest of reasons its horrible!!! i dont think my mum wants me here any more coz its getting worse n shes fearing for my sisters safety n im upset about that as well! its proper not nice at all i fear all the time when i go out i might just flip at my mates i think i might just lock myself in a room. that way i cant hurt anyone apart from myself!
i have no one to talk to either coz everyone will just roll there eyes n be all whatever but its hard being me and all this hoopla which i know no one is going to read but it makes me feel better if i can put it all down onto a screen.
anyway got to go and think somewhere about what to do but i cant properly because my mate is here and i dont want to think im being rude or anything 
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