not only do i mean online but in this sort of mood

i saw the guy who put the gun to my head on saturday in town and it totally freaked me out not only that i usually go out to this really cool club on tuesday nights but something happened last week and i dont know what it is i jus woke up after having a panick attack and now im scared to go out to this club and anywhere really just in case something happens and its really getting me down i cant go out with my friends and all them are going out and having a really good time and im not coz im scared and i cant tell half of them why i need a strong drink! maybe ill just stay in and waste my life away its 10x safer. I cant have panick attacks (which aint just small there really big i pass out and stop breathing and everything) and embaress myslef or see that dickhead!!

i just need somewhere to vent my anger

xx