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  • okay well....

    i know i havent worte on here for a while so i thought i might just do a quick post.....

    well.....what can i say......i left my last job and had to move back in with my parents, n its going great. I dont know i just feel abit down lately so i really dont know whats up with me tbh. I really wish i knew what is going on in my little head i really wish i do.... i wish i could try and explain it so then i would proberbly be able too make sense of it. I finally can read though i know it sounds stupid but i used to hate reading i could never get into it at all and then my sister was reading the twighlt books and she seemed really into them and then the film came out and she watched it n then convinced me too watch she had all ready told me half the story anyway but i still watched it and i really liked it and now a couple of months down the line and i really wanted to read and so i started reading and i couldn't stop now im on the final one and im going to finish reading it this week, its really wierd though coz in the past if i have ever tried reading something it would lit take me about a year too finish if i did finish but these books have only taken me about 2 weeks to finsh its really not like me, alot of things these days arent in my nature. I done really have much else to say but ill be posting again soon.

    bye!

  • well...

    went out last night with my mates, n it was going great having a nice dance ad all that having a few drinks and stuff then some dickhead decied to be smart and jump over the dance floor and kicked me really hard in my leg/hip lol. Now i can barely walk on it and it proper hurts and im meant to go to my boyfs mates party thing and i really want to go but i can barely walk! And i cant move my toe ahaha my body is just failing on me this week ahaha.

    Good thing is im proper happy being with my boyf!!! Hes awesome not seen him for a few days though and i proper miss him so i really want to go tonight.

    oh well lets see if i can get ready first ahaha

    xx

  • last night

    was well wierd. It was like wtf i mean one min im fine next i loose the erson im meant to walk back with and i dont walk back on my own i hate it i get well scared!

    I ended up seeing one of the bouncers from satans (the place i go) n he gave me a lift back n some other really random girls i met jus the second before ahaha. But it was well wierd i cant even explain it. I am so hungover! I need to stop drinking so much i need to stop all together. I just find it easier to cope with me and its easier to be happy marnie and put a smile on my face. My friend found out that im not always ass happy as i say i am. Which was scary coz i just wanted evrything to be normal with me fr once but then she found out and now she keeps seeing if im ok well not so much anymore now she has a new boyfriend i dont get to see her as much now. I am actually really happy these days though coz im with mike hes just great! I still get upset sometimes but thats just life and everyone gets like that.

    xx

  • OMG!!

    Omg i am so extremly happy at the moment!! I got back in contact with an old friends from primary school who i lost contact with when i went high school and then his older sis went to the school and we became really goo mate and then i saw him again. I was happy then and then we lost contact again. And then he added me on myspace and now were together.

    He makes me soooooo happy and i just cant explain how i feel hes awsome hes soooooooo nice! H es sweet and funny and kind.

    xx

  • WTF IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!!

    i keep just being horrible too my parents and its not fair on them and me coz i hate being this horrid bitch that doesnt know when her mood is going to dramaticly change!!!

    its really not a nice feeling and now im sat in my room being pissed off with the world when it should be me im pissed off with and i know what your prob thinking oh god this girl is just sooooooo annoying who only ever thinks she has a bad life when there are people out there who have it way worse then her but atm i feel like complete shit!!!

    i have tried getting helo for being angry all the time but it just doesnt work!!!

    and now my family have to suffer and i dont want to move out because im just not ready!!!!

    im just going to sit here and think for a bit now

  • i need a job!!!

    im fed up with being at home all the time its just soooo boring and endless and i need money!!! i hate being broke well at least not having enough too go out for drinks with my mates when ever i want.

    on the plus side to life there is a job going at rileys in chorlton which is a bar thats like 20 mins away on the bus so thats pretty cool and alot of my mates live near there as well so ill be going there tomorrow and seeing if i can get an interview yay

    anyways i better be off

    speak to you all soon

    xx

  • ok then

    well i havent stopped drinking since like friday lol

    just having a good laugh with friends and all that im just abit fed up of being someone else there are only a couple of people that i can be myself around and even then i have to be slightly not me and i know many people on here have been in the same situation as me so any help would be welcome

    thanks

    xx

  • not very happy!!

    well im happy that i get to see my mate who came over n all that but i just hate the fact that no one can trust me around my sister coz i get to aggresive and might flip out and hurt her :'(

    its really upsetting and they all just think i just do it and i can help it but i cant i really cant i just get agnry all the time without thinking and just flip out for the smallest of reasons its horrible!!! i dont think my mum wants me here any more coz its getting worse n shes fearing for my sisters safety n im upset about that as well! its proper not nice at all i fear all the time when i go out i might just flip at my mates i think i might just lock myself in a room. that way i cant hurt anyone apart from myself!

    i have no one to talk to either coz everyone will just roll there eyes n be all whatever but its hard being me and all this hoopla which i know no one is going to read but it makes me feel better if i can put it all down onto a screen.

    anyway got to go and think somewhere about what to do but i cant properly because my mate is here and i dont want to think im being rude or anything :(
    xx

  • ok soooo.....

    im like dieing from a cold!!! ask how i dont know?? lol

    i keep coughing and sneezing and i really want to go out with my mates tonight but i really cant!!!

    just thought id come and rant lol

    in better news though my interview for the bbc apprentaship course i want to do went really really well the women really liked me and everything and said i had a strong chance but she doesnt get to pick ho goes through to the course so we will have to keep our fingers crossed wont we?? well just thought id give you my update.

    xx

  • well...

    i av a fukin cold n full of tierdness n 2 top it all off i have an important interview 2moz at 10 in the god damn morning so i went town 2day 2 get sum interview clothes its for an apprentaship with the bbc for media production which would be really cool as i would love to be on tv so this will help me find out what goes on behind the scenes and all that am i also hopefully going to move down south within the nex year or 2 and when i do i am going to be enrolling in one of the top acting schools which my auntie knows the directer man so i will have a leg up for that but i want to get abit more experience in working on stage and stuff i do have lots all ready i have bin on stage a few times since i was little but the more the better which will help me inmprove on my skils and help me add more to my cv which would be pretty cool. so at the moment i am looking for a good drama agent which is hard to find these days lol

    anyone want to help that knows of any that are near manchester will help loads just message me

    thanks

    xx

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